What my birthday means to me

Hey guys – it’s GS here.  I know it’s been a while but I promise I have a good excuse.  Perhaps it was because I felt like I couldn’t write – that the things I was going through just couldn’t be put to ink because it made it feel TOO REAL.  But here I am, on my 25th birthday, feeling like I finally am ready to reflect.

4 weeks ago I had to undergo abdominal surgery.  Without going into too much details, the surgery was very necessary, very sudden, and very scary.  I had to stop my life – defer grad school, defer wedding planning, and just STOP.  And for someone like me, who is always go go go, this was tough.  Not only was I going through a major health crisis, my body had been experiencing unexpected and unwanted changes.  I had gained significant weight, felt lousy all the time, had no interest in food – I just felt like I wasn’t myself.  The surgery would not only leave me with a big scar from my breastbone to my belly button, but came with a 6 week recovery period.  And all of this was happening four months before my wedding!  Oy.

Why am I writing this?  Because we all spend SO much time (myself included) being vain about our bodies.  We look at the outside as the ideal – being thin and fit.  But going through this experience has given me a new and much more valuable outlook.  I don’t just appreciate my looks – I have a newfound appreciation for what’s on the inside (literally!).  I APPRECIATE WHAT MY BODY CAN DO. I appreciate that my surgery took half the time as expected because I was so fit.  I appreciate that a week after surgery I was able to walk on the treadmill (an old lady walk mind you, but a walk all the same!).  I appreciate that two days ago I started to run again.  I appreciate that my body has healed itself so rapidly and I even appreciate that new scar – a scar that I will ROCK for the rest of my life as a badge of honor – as a sign that I am a warrior and can conquer anything.

So what do I wish to impart to you?  Tomorrow morning when you look in the mirror, do me a favor.  Instead of nitpicking every little perceived flaw, take a good hard look.  Appreciate yourself.  Be grateful for the amazing things your body can do.  Because without, you’re nothing.

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3 responses to this post.

  1. Good for you! The body is indeed, a wondrous machine. Sometimes we don’t appreciate it until we are threatened or challenged in some way. Sounds like your attitude is one of full appreciation.


  2. Posted by caryn on April 29, 2012 at 10:07 pm

    yay! so glad you are on the mend and back to writing. you are strong!


  3. Posted by caryn on April 29, 2012 at 10:08 pm

    and happy birthday!


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